Change - part 2

Today’s my third day working at this company. I’m slowly fitting in. I think I can see myself contributing here. My first day was hell. I swear I almost died! Watching the clock goes by sooo slowwwly.. When I got home, I hugged my baby and I cried really hard. She patted me in confusion. It baffled me how a one-year-old can understand emotions and be so compassionate. I cried even harder. I seek solitude in my husband’s caring arms. As I regained realization and recollected myself, I sat down to think on my way forward.

It wasn’t the job, the boss nor the people. It was me having a tough time adapting. I know that I am the type of person who repulses changes terribly. I hate it when I have to change school every other year since my dad’s job requires relocations. I hate it when I have to start staying at the hostel during my pre-uni days. I had could not manage changing rooms after each semester in uni. I had a tough time adjusting being a wife. I almost had a breakdown after giving birth to my adorable daughter. But one thing for sure is that in DUE TIME, I managed. Heck, I rocked it!

So to sum it all up, give time. Everything will flow through nicely. If it doesn’t, CHANGE!

changes

im going through a lot of changes in my life at the moment. i learnt that i am quite persistant to changes. and i also learnt that its q normal thing (phew).. as i read on 'going through changes in life', i realised that my changes is fairly simple ones. people are going through bankruptcy, loss of a dear one, break-ups etc. far worst! so now i am toning down the level of drama in ways i would narrate the story here.

1) i am going through a change of career
totally clueless. but i have a feeling im gonna rock it :) lets just hope my positive attitude on this works out fine. my dad advised me to have a game plan, come with a bang. hmm... will work on that i suppose.

2) i am moving to another house
yup, we finally found ourselves a new home. a place we can call ours. i used to long for it soooo much! now the excitement is mixed with the uncertainty and doubts. most of it because i have to move out of my comfort zone. i used to loathe it here, but after more than two years of adjustment, its not so bad after all. having said that, i am zest up to see the new place and setting up the place with my DH will be fun fun fun!

3) i am changing my lifestyle
last november, the three of us had a holiday in australia. it was great! i love it there. i love the cleanliness, i love the pace there, i love the mindset of the people there... everything! to the point that i looked up on migrating to australia! anyways, my stay there has made me more aware about how i live my life. i want to lead an active and healthy life. i will also watch what i eat and what my family eat.

4) i am going to change the babysitter for my baby
my lil one is 1 and a half now. she has been with her grandparents during the day while my husband and i were at work. and during my gap of changing jobs, i took care of her myself and it has been over a month now. im thinking about sending her to a montessori now that she is bigger. have not decided on that yet. hmm..

5) i will change to be a better person
as a whole, i want to be a better servant of God. set a good example for my lil one. dear God, please help me to do just that. amin.