SAHM

if you have been following, you would know that i left my job last week (giving a pat on my back). subsequently, i have been a full time housewife or a stay at home mom (SAHM) for almost a week now (giving myself a HARDER pat on the back). this new lifestyle im adapting is very different in many ways and here are the things i learnt recently.

1) im super attached to my baby and vice-versa. even her babah is second choice now ;p
2) i may not be cut-out to be a SAHM but im rocking it! i learn to cook baby menus, dinner for my hubby, and some other chores too.
3)  i am stressssssss freeeeeeeeeee (yeay!)
4) i got hooked on American Idol 10 and oh my god is steven tyler hot or super hot?! HOT DOG! (ok, maybe too much tv..heh). never knew i can be a groupie. heh..

note: of course my DH is my number one super star!! (in case you are reading this ;p )

parenting

 

23 september 2010. that was the fated dated. my first day of being a parent. she was the most beautiful thing i ever laid my eyes on. she has tiny eyes like her father's, cute buttony nose with red adorable lips also like her father's.

i gave birth to her, a 3.1kg baby then, on a wednesday (4th of syawal 1430) after 8hrs of struggling in the labour room. she was a healthy baby though she had to be incubated for 5 days for toxic removal after consuming meconium due to stress (long labour). i was worried, confused and guilt-stricken. i suffered the post-natal depression. it lasted for weeks. it was my DH who juggled everything and still manage offer me a smile face while i just lay there crying in confusion.

i had my confinement back home at my parents some 400km away from my house. i slowly regain my sanity and bonded with my beautiful newborn. she doubled her weight and she was blessed with health and she was a happy baby. her milestones were always on check with her growth if not quicker. i returned to after 2months of maternity leave despite me having second thoughts about continuing to work.

my baby is 16 months now. she can (baby) talk, run around and feed herself. she eats almost everything we eat. she sleeps with her elephant soft toy that she loves so much. she gets excited everytime we bath her. and she is the cutest when she laughs! oh, DH and i enjoy watching her grow but inside of me, i wish she could pause.

"mommy cant catch up with u sayang. please dont grow up so fast." :(

the love of my life

he was the love of my life. i fell for him. hard. he was a friend who became a partner and subsequently my soulmate. we have been happily together for over 4 years, including 2 years of marriage. together, we share EVERYTHING. a house, a car, a bed and a beautiful daughter. the latter one is the most important of all. i watched him grow from a carefree teenager to a responsible employee, to a responsible husband and to a loving father. he was good at everything he does really. he was awarded the Start Award best employee last month, he was a husband that provide everything in the house including the housework and he was the first (other that the nurse and doctor) who held our baby. what more can i say, god sent me an angel.

career

im not much of a career-oriented person. i like having a job (that pays), making me feel useful and what not, but then again i dont strategize a game plan to work my way up and set goals for myself to land a top-notch position in the company or things like that. im pretty much contented if i can contribute in ways i can, deliver what is expected and by the end of the month, i get rewarded for that effort. thats it. promotions or bonuses are the extras.

being a wife and a mother of a beautiful baby, i did thought about leaving the job and start a home-based job or a part-time job. but being in malaysia, opportunities like that are not easily available unless you start your own business. i have tried:
1) online blogshop selling women fashion wear - sold 10 pieces with 3 left
2) online and offline business selling kain sulam (material with embroidery) - sold 20 pieces, have 2 left
3) part-time private tutor- on-going till today

from all three experiences, i would say tutoring is the best for me. it pays, i love teaching and it is less time consuming and headaches. it is totally rewarding when your students excel in major exams, it just make me so proud! :) i was contemplating on doing tutoring for a full-time job as i can have the flexibility time-wise. but i often hesitated. i feel that it lacks in the job security department. actually, confidence is what i lack. i have had 6 students ever since.

my full-time job is an executive (kuli batak) post at a corporate company. this is my first job and i stuck to it for almost 3 years now. i feel that i dont 'grow' much there. i didnt learn as much as i expect and sadly, i dont gain much friendship as well. my unsatisfaction got the best of me and my tolerence is going thin. the work balance there is non existant. i tendered my resignation and will be leaving this cold cold place soon.

i landed my second job in a small IT company near my house (15mins away). the location was my number one perk! second one would be the pay. there rest is just neglible. i havent started working there yet, but im full with enthusiasm.

note: for better or for worse, i stand guided by YOU.

auto

i need a car. i have 3 weeks to go around (browse online) about it. come march, i would need the car to commute back and forth to work (did i mention that im changing job? if i havent, i will blog about that next. promise!). i didnt have much choice to choose from as my budget is pretty much ciput. its has to be auto transmission car, fairly new with age less than 8yrs old, low maintenance and lastly but most importantly below rm20k! where on god blessed earth can i find a car like that? my oh-so-limited choices are as listed below:

1) perodua kelisa - rm16-17k for 2003 model. but i dont fancy it much
2) innokom atos - rm 13k for 2003 model. but high maintenance+fuel consumption
3) proton savvy - rm14-15k for 2005 model. but must buy manual only
4) proton saga blm - rm25-26k for 2008 model. burst the budget!

sigh. im more inclining towards buying a saga blm, but i have to win a lottery first. should that never happen, i would be buying a manual transmission proton savvy and swap cars with my DH. his is an auto transmission car. decisions decisions decisions... how i would love a world where they dont matter.

note: yes, i only drive auto transmission cars. period.

welcome

hi. this is where i scribble my random thoughts, my happy moments and my not-so-happy-i-want-to-kill-someone-FAST moments. well, mostly its the latter ones. haha.

three

i have been working at this big fat company for nearly THREE years. and in THREE days time, i'll be out of this shithole. yeayyy!! hated it here. it isnt about the workload, the location (i commute over 40km daily and dont get me started on the traffic!) nor it is about the environment. its the people. after THREE years of being here, i've lost my modjo. almost. i once was a bubbly, friendly girl but i became this cold-hearted bitch who couldnt care less about nothing. i eat alone at lunch. i stand being shouted at. i smiled being disdained upon. it took a toll on me. yup, i've lost my modjo. and im getting it back ya'll!

note: accept change. change is a friend.

my playbook

welcome to my playbook. i dont think im much of a "blog person". i dont fancy the idea of sharing ALL my thoughts with almost everyone, putting my life out there as an opened book. somehow, today, i changed my mind. i want a blog. i want to blog about random thoughts in my head. i want to channel them out because im running out of space in there.

note: told you im not a big-headed b*tch :)